I woke with rage beyond my mind It's tempting, I find. Intensifies with time I whisper to myself, "I hate this place..." God Dammit, I hate this place and the face That stares back at me in the dreaded glass. I don't even know what "this place" means. Whatever reality shattered my dreams Or took my drive, gumption and nerve. And I can't help but think that I deserve Whatever fate this was destined to be. "Breathe," I say. I can get past this. Whatever this is can be forgotten in time, The thought is tempting, I find.
I hear my kids laugh and I think of their past when they first said "dad" and all the times they were sad and, my God, I swell with desire to see them grow old. I hear the stories told from those before me and thank God they were bold enough to help me create the life that I hold. I, simply, see the next sunrise and thank God I'm alive and can, maybe, strive for this idea of acceptance to his eyes. I rejoice in each day created by the Lord, I lived to see it rise. Gratitude will keep my thoughts on a high rise and my hope will be my guide